Today I am feeling so grateful for so many wonderful reasons - but my top reasons are life and health and the opportunity to spend today with my seven unique and wonderful daughters. I am happy to be at home with no where to go and to spend time reflecting on how far my life has come from the sadness and darkness it was less than a decade ago. Sex, drugs, alcohol and severe domestic violence threatened to take my life on multiple occasions. I lived confused and depressed - nothing ever went right and one night things got much worst... "My moment of realization came the night I screamed out to God to save my life as my ex-husband stood on my back while I lay face-down in a lily pond he had thrown me in to. I can hardly remember anything except praying for life as my head was under the murky water. Somehow I did lift my head and saw three of my daughters standing in the doorway helpless and crying as he proceeded to hold a post and jump on my back a few times shoving me to the bottom."...
Failing at one thing can be the open doorway that we needed in order to see the opportunity on the other side that we had never considered; failure can many times provide us the strength and experience that was missing from our initial effort so that when we do get off the floor we are ready to charge ahead. Failure to properly manage a sudden financial reward in one instance can provide us that keen wisdom we need in order to ensure all goes well should such an opportune moment arise again. The failure of one marriage can very often lead a person to meet and marry their soul mate after the turmoil and madness of divorce before.
There are always tiny things that bring sunshine in to my life even on dark days, but it can take a crap-load of effort to attempt to find happiness during moments of despair or feelings of failure which can often lead to depression. They say "laughter is the best medicine" and that is indeed true - but when even a laugh commands more effort than you are willing to give during these moments - I have found that it is first best to at least find your smile.
Ever notice how the words "anxiety" and "depression" are almost always together? Being anxious can be very stressful, and consistent stress often leads to depression; and depression is not a cool place to be. Depression can happen to anyone no matter how happy they may appear; I know first-hand the hopeless, dark feeling that is… Continue reading PRACTICING PATIENCE: REDUCING STRESS A LITTLE BIT AT A TIME